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Jun 27, 2013

Balada susah tidur

Aku tak bisa tidur...
Aku ingin menanyakan apa penyebabnya
Aku pun tak tahu.
Entah sejak kapan hal ini terjadi
Aku ingin bertanya apakah bulan terlihat indah disaat seperti ini?
Entahlah atau mungkin bulan yang menggantikanku tidur?!
Sejak kapan bulan tidur?
Sejak kita diperbudak oleh orang asing mungkin
Bukankah itu sudah lama? Atau baru terjadi?
Entahlah aku bingung menjawabnya
Mau dijawab atau tidak toh tak ada yang peduli
Jungkir balik pun mereka hanya melirik sinis
Masa bodoh apa kata orang!
Mulut mereka hanya gula kembang gula
Seperti kapas lalu hilang begitu saja
Menyisakan rasa serik
Gulanya ternyata palsu! Omongannya lebih palsu lagi!
Meludah dibuat-buat apalagi waktu keluar kata-kata jijik tak bermoral
Bermoral atau tidak tergantung gulanya
Dari sejak tebu sudah diberi petuah baik hasilnya pun akan demikian
Asli!! Tidak pakai serik di tenggorokan!
Ya begitulah namanya juga turunan
Bangkotan bagus hasil pun bagus
Tak ada serik lagi. Mati kau serik!

Jun 14, 2013

Review: (Suicide Room)


Hello..
I wanna tell you about a polish movie called suicide room you can watch it on youtube.
So this movie probably does really have a deep meaning, dont do something without thinking about it first. Just like the title you would have known what the story's theme but i'm gonna tell you then.
Dominik, a handsome, cool, rich but never really got love from his parents because their so busy to take care of him. That's make him a mysterious person, not that creepy mysterious thing. At prom night there was a dance thing and his parents almost late :| but their made it. After prom Dominik gather with his friends and had this sort of kissing game. Karolina would kissing with her girl friend if dominik and alex also kissing, and they have a deal. Their other friend i dont know what his name was recording it. When it comes to dominik's turn they were kissing so passionate. They really were. The next day alex fooled around with Dominik like flirting thing or something and maybe dominik also thought that alex likes him. When material arts time alex and dominik fight and there he comes. Dominik comes when alex turned him down to the ground. You know actual come. He rushed to go home but his driver was not there so he took the bus at home and unfortunately had a fight with some random guys. Poor you dominik.
After that accident alex wrote down on facebook, he told everyone and everyone knew that dominik is gay.
He was frustated with wounded in his left eyes he got a message from suicide room to joined them. This is where the main story begin. He met with other member of suicide room on internet game or somethin i dont know. And he met sylvia on webcam also a member of the suicide room. She is the queen. They chat everyday every hour,minute non stop. Dominik never comes out from his room for about ten days because sylvia told him that he dont need anybody, he dont need school and sort of that. Sylvia didnt come out from her room for a couple years.
The story goes to when all group prepare to kill themselves by taking a pills but at that time Dominik wasnt ready yet, he disapprove it.  What will happen to Dominik, Sylvia, Dominik's parents and the suicide room? Will he taking the pills? If you curious just watch it :)

May 22, 2013

Antara Impian dan Dian Sastrowardoyo




Kamu tau sebagaimana rindu aku untuk mendapatkanmu. -mu disini berarti sesuatu yang spesial dan aku dambakan. Ya benar! itu adalah cita-cita. bicara soal cita-cita tau dian sastrowardoyo kan? pemeran utama pemain film tersohor karya rudi soejarwo "ada apa dengan cinta?". Kalian pasti bertanya-tanya apa hubungannya Dian Sastro dengan cita-citaku?! jawabanya adalah ada. 

Beberapa waktu silam entah kapan itu aku tidak perlu menyebutkan tanggal yang pasti aku melihatnya di televisi. Sebuah acara talkshow berbintang tamu Dian Sastro dan lainnya. Aku tidak perlu menyebutkan yang lainnya karena terasa samar-samar diingatan. Yang sangat membuatku ingin tahu adalah acara itu mengulas diary Dian Sastro. dia menuliskan kata-kata ' i want to be a new yorker!' it was really a big dream. dan kalian tahu apa yang terjadi sekarang, she made it. Dengan kerja keras  pastinya. 

Aku juga bermimpi untuk bisa bekerja diluar negeri. merasakan bagaimana susah-sedihnya hidup disana. apakah lebih keras dari negeriku ini?! banyak orang bilang sejelek-jeleknya negeri sendiri masih lebih baik daripada negeri  orang. 

Terkadang aku menerawang akan jadi apakah aku? aku ingin menjadi geofisikawan atau fotografer. Disisi lain aku masih bingung. Aku ingin bisa mengabadikan setiap momen di  dalam satu bahkan lebih jepretan yang bermakna. Momen. 

We never gonna be able to back in old  times unless we have time traveler. We dont have it, yet. So capture that moment
 Aku juga berpikir seperti ini:
I have to dreams a big one like dian sastro but i have to know my own potential first so if i couldn't make it i wouldnt be so disappointed. make your mind thinks that you can do it! no more falling aparts.

Punya mimpi yang besar tidak ada buruknya. kita jadi merasa seperti termotivasi dengan sendirinya untuk mendapatkannya. Bisakah kita menentukan takdir? Bukankah takdir sudah ditentuka oleh Yang Maha Esa?
Tpi nasib yang masih menunggu kita untuk merubahnya menjadi lebih baik. Apapun yang terjadi hanya Allah SWT yang tahu. Amin. Semoga Allah juga meridhoi.
It is okay to be a dreamer. But put an effort into it so it will comes true.



May 17, 2013

Pekat


kadangkala aku mempertanyakan pekat
akankah kehadiranmu disadari?
pekat tidak peduli 
cemooh orang diluar sana tak berarti apa-apa
pekat tetap tidak peduli
ia selalu menemaniku
walau ku tak tahu siapa dia
aku bingung dengan hiruk pikuk ini
akankah mereka membawa kebahagiaan?
mereka mencekikku seakan aku ini orang yang bersalah
bersalah atau tidak pekat tetap setia menemaniku dalam diam
aku ingin tahu apa yang ada dalam pikirannya
walau ku tak tahu bagaimana harus bertanya
dia tetap diam
pekat selalu ada di setiap malam 
merangkul kelopak mata ini agar menutup hingga saatnya tiba ketika terang membukannya
terang
akankah kau menyinari atau malah menyilaukan? 
entahlah, aku masih tetap memilih pekat
dalam keheningan ia seperti memberi isyarat 
isyarat yang takkan pernah kupahami
terima kasih pekat untuk kehadiranmu selama ini 



Little Kitties

Hello guys......

So today i was just looked at my old little kitties photo, which is it's so damn cute. It remids me of them while they were still a kids (I sound like they are my kids :| ). So here it is..
Sleep!

Jan 1, 2013

Happy New Year 2013

Happy new year guys (˘▽˘~)(~˘▽˘)~
Well all i can say is this is the most boring new year hope the next new year could be more fun than this piece of sht. I only stay at home no special party, not going out all i did was laid on my bed and played with my phone huft what a boring day.

Anyway the weirdest thing is this day 31 december i had only one meal. Wow can you believe that? And i am not feel hungry at all *krucuk krucuk* mmm a little bit hungry maybe but thats okay i can hold it. Unfortunately in this holiday that was all i did. I dont know this day i don't feel like going out and also dont wanna spend my money. I felt kinda stingy this day but that for my own's sake. I keep my money so i can use it for buy new books (read:novels).  This novel keep calling me to buy them but i don't have enough money yet! What am i gonna do is  save up some money to buy them someday.

You know there will be national final examination for senior high school in indonesia. That will be held in the middle of april. OMG i am not ready yet i hope this year i could learn all subject faster and memorize them quickly. Hopefully i will get a good score and i can be accept in a university with less difficulties matters.

Even this is not a great new year's eve but i will make this year become a great year of my life. Am i too much? Oh that's fine. What i need to do is do everything in a right way and don't messed up thing that already been written by Allah.